Struggling

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Recently, I have felt completely depleted and in all honesty I don’t know how I am going to handle this.

It is my own personal issue, yet when I try to discuss it with someone so I can talk my way through it, they always want to fix it for me.

It just shows how much my friends and family care, but they can’t fix it.

Life has a way of beating down on us and if life doesn’t get in the way – I do.

We have all heard the saying that “We are our own worse enemy.” It is true. How do we manage to take something simple and turn it into the most complicated issue on the face of the earth?

I’m a working mother who struggles.

  • I struggle with my appearance.
  • I struggle with my chores, which never seem to end.
  • I struggle to leave my son at daycare.

The struggles can go on and on.

Everyone has struggles and they’re not comparable because we are all at different places in our lives. Yet, we constantly compare our lives to that of others either to bring us down or to make us feel better about our life choices.

That is not how I want to live my life. I’m tired of comparing; it sucks the joy right out of life and makes me feel as though I am a failure. The reality is that I am doing my very best and my son and husband know that.

There is no solution to my struggles except for a change in the way I think (only I can control that) and to give my burdens over to my Abba Father.

“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; He will never let the righteous be shaken.” Psalms 55:22

For those of you dealing with struggles today, just know you aren’t alone and do your best not to compare yourself to others. Find something that brings you joy and hang on to it. Do not be shaken, stand firm!

I will be hanging on to my little one tonight for he is a great joy to my soul!

Wishing you all the best,

❤ Sarah

New Hobby

Life can be stressful.

That being said, it is important to try and have a hobby. Mine was writing short stories and any other form of creative writing, but it takes me a while before I get into the groove of writing. And with my rambunctious toddler, I can typically only dedicate 30 min or so to free writing.

We all know that its the last 5 minutes of free writing when you finally start getting into the real story. So I have sought out other hobbies to relax me and I believe I have finally found one. I will get back to writing soon though, but it is nice to have options.

What is this new hobby? I thought you would never ask. It’s painting! 

Unlike most children who get to enjoy art classes in school, I never really got into it. I attribute most of this to going to a private school who was limited on their art teacher choices, and the fact that I suck at drawing.

Oh well, I have discovered it now, and man does it feel great!

I am still extremely new to painting with acrylics, and  just completed my fourth painting, thanks to the use of Youtube tutorials. 🙂

I know I still have a lot to learn, but that is why I am so excited about this new hobby. I will be sure to post new images when I have them.

Here is my progress thus far (from oldest to newest):

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This is my first painting ever! I had a canvas laying around and just used some craft paint. I know its not any good, but it is what gave me my desire!
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Second painting. Went to a Paint Nite with some girlfriends and came back with this beauty. I know its not perfect, but I am still really proud of what I created with barely any knowledge.
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Third Painting using a tutorial from Youtube by The Art Sharpa. Painting is titled Girl in the Rain. Tutorial is linked below.
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Fourth painting also from a tutorial from The Art Sharpa for the Aurora Borealis. Tutorial linked below.

 

This is what I have been doing to keep my stress levels down. What do you do to handle stress?

Happy Tuesday!

 

❤ Sarah

Stress

My heart is stressed and I am battling fears.

Everyone has fears. Everyone deals with anxiety and stress, but for some reason I feel like we ignore these emotions in conversation.

I have been told to “suck it up,” or even better — I just don’t talk about them and I keep it bottled up inside.

As time passes I have learned that I am able to handle more and more stress and I use to think this was a good thing. I thought it meant I was maturing or becoming more of an adult, and then I gained clarity.

Yes, stress is a part of everyday life, but if you constantly allow the stress to build and never learn how to handle it properly, eventually you will snap.

Just like a rubber band most of us can stretch pretty far, but the further and further you pull the band from itself its integrity is compromised. It will snap back and cause pain and sometime it will break into multiple pieces that can never be put back together.

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My nature is to plan. I always have a list of things to do and it is always prioritized. However there are times that list haunts me. If a task is left unchecked I can feel the weight of it on my mind, it causes me stress and I seek freedom. This is not the only reason that I stress, but it is one that is easily managed. If I can just conquer this, than maybe I can focus on another area. (Oops the planner in me just came out again 😛 )

Rubber bands may break, but they can also snap back into their original shape. I find this to be true in my life as well. I don’t want to go to the point of breaking, but sometimes I do need to be stretched. I need to be tested and I need to be pliable.

If I want to be free I must let go of stress and anxiety. I must snap back into place.

Easier said that done — that’s for sure. However, scripture is a tool through this battle and if used, I will be free.

Our stress and fears maybe different, but God is constant.

Here are three verses I keep repeating over and over and they have given me hope and instilled new faith into my heart.

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Through my struggles I am going to read scripture and remember that I am a child of the King.

My heart and prayers go out to anyone battling stress. Know that you are not alone and you will never walk alone.

Love,

Sarah