Preparation…

“Preparation is key!” Not sure who was the first one to tell me this, but honestly I am starting to feel like it is a bunch of bull. It doesn’t matter how much I try to get organized and ready, I still don’t “feel” prepared. Even though most of my thoughts have been dealing with getting ready for the birth of my son, I feel this way in life often.

Are You Prepared

When my mother would take my brother and I back to school shopping it just seemed like it was always more stressful than just showing up our first day with a pad of paper and a pencil. I mean honestly, there would be something that wasn’t on the list and we would have to go back and repeated the whole process. So it really didn’t matter how prepared we thought we were, we always were missing something.

The Bible does talk in depth about preparation and I do think that it is a serious matter however, there is a huge difference in what I perceive as preparation and what God say’s in his word. When we try to prepare for our day, there is always going to be something missing if you didn’t fill your day with the love of God first. If God was not the first thing on your heart and you did not acknowledge him, then lets face it, you are not ready for the day.

I am not judging anyone, because I am totally guilty of forgetting or trying to do other things first. This is typically when I fall short and realize that I am nothing without God as the center of my life. Being prepared for the workday, and also being prepared for my child, although seem extremely important are nothing with out the guidance and direction the Lord provides.

Earlier this week I had my first nightmare about my son being born. I won’t go into to much detail, but I was not prepared and didn’t even have my son’s going home outfit (pictured below, so cute!) let alone his car seat.

Going home outfitSo in the dream they wouldn’t let me have my son, and were going to take him away from me because I wasn’t a “prepared” mother.

Needless to say I did not sleep well the rest of the night, I kept thinking about everything that needed to be done and everything that I was still missing. Especially things I needed that my husband and I cannot afford.

Just as I was starting to give myself a headache, I felt the presence of God wrap his love around me. He spoke the words that have echoed in my heart each day after having that dream, “These preparations are in vein if they don’t include me; let me show you what you need and lean on me. It is through me that you will not only have what you need, but the knowledge you need to raise this child I am blessing you with.”

I am honestly not one to cry often, except apparently when I am pregnant, but I broke down and cried in the bathroom as my husband continued to snore in our bedroom. I didn’t realize how much stress I was putting on myself to be perfect. The anxiety that I was feeling wasn’t just about the things I needed to be a good mom, it was about being a good mom. I allowed doubt to enter into my life simply because I didn’t feel I was prepared. There is no book you can buy that will tell you how to be the perfect mother, there are books that try but lets be realist! God is the only one who can teach and guide us to be who He has called us to be.

I know this may not seem that bad to some, but here is a sneak peak into my nursery. I will make sure to post an updated photo once I have it all done!

Preperation

Overcoming Fear

I have thought long and hard about the post for this week, but the only thing that came to mind worth posting about was about overcoming fear. Now yes, I know that everyone and their mom has an opinion on fear and how to overcome it, but this is not an advice blog! This is my own story of overcoming fear.

My very first post was about being diagnosed with GD and diabetes has always been a huge fear of mine. I will admit that even though I was being optimistic in my post that the fear still tormented me.

Per my doctors advice I have done everything that I could to correct my blood sugars, and for the most part I have done a great job. My doctors have been very happy with my success level. However there is one time of day that I cannot correct my blood sugar and that is my “fasting” sugars (this means that it is my first test of the morning prior to having any food).

Now since I cannot do anything to correct the fasting sugars I have been placed on a low dose of insulin. So after I finally get over one fear, I am faced with another-injecting myself!

Syringe

The first day that I had my insulin I followed the photo instructions just like a child and prepared my first syringe. I tried to talk my husband into giving me the shot, and honestly he was fine with giving me the shot, but then what would I learn.

I want to teach my son to face his fears, and if I refuse to face my own how will I ever lead by example?

So I took the prepared syringe in my hand and cleaned my injection zone. Slowly I put the needle down to my thigh and took a deep breath and pressed it into my body. Done!

I whined and complained for so long prior to that shot and it was nothing! It didn’t affect me physically as much as I thought it would. My blood sugar monitor hurt more than that little tiny needle.

The real moral of the story is that I wouldn’t have had the guts to face my fear if it wasn’t for my son. I want him to be healthy and happy, but I also want him to know that fear is in the mind and with God all things are possible.

Yes, a needle is a small thing to be afraid of, but it was a real fear that I had. Now it is behind me.

What fears are you facing and what steps are you taking to overcome them? Leave a comment below and don’t forget to subscribe.

Keep It Simple Stupid!

As an expecting mom there is a lot of worries that tend to arise, and for some reason the number one thing the doctors tell you is “not to stress,” great advice right? Wrong, if I am not worrying about my health, I am worrying about what the baby will need and it goes on and on. Trust me when I say the “To Do Lists” just keep growing.

Lately I have lacked focus on basically, everything! The only thing that lasts is my son. So instead of doing my chores I decided to mindlessly clear out my e-mail account. I know not very exciting, but I haven’t cleaned it out since my junior year in college (3 years ago). I found a great e-mail from one of my professors from a Mass Communications class and it was titled K.I.S.S. (Keep it Simple Stupid).

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Yes, the principle of K.I.S.S.  is about crafting your message to the public and is used in Mass Communications and Marking, but it can and should be applied in real life!

Life gets way to complicated and we are the ones who overcomplicate things. With all of the “issues” that I have in my pregnancy I have done nothing but worry, I haven’t been able to enjoy being pregnant, and I so desperately want to. Honestly this is no ones fault but my own. I created my own anxiety!

This morning when I woke up I could feel God’s presence and He reminded me that I am not in control, He is! I try to control every situation that comes up and really all I do is stress myself out! I have to start giving God every aspect of my life. This includes my health, the baby’s health, my marriage, my career – everything!

“Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.”

Matthew 6:33

I cannot guarantee that I will fix this issue of stress immediately, but I am going to try. I want to use this time to focus on my son and enjoy the end of my pregnancy. So for at least 20 minutes of my day I will reflex on my son, not the worries associated with him, but on him! I will pray over him and his health, read to him and even count his kicks.

I know this all sounds like the basics, but that’s the point of K.I.S.S! It doesn’t matter what I do, but it needs to stay simple. Slowly, I will implement this into the rest of my daily life, but for now I chose to focus on God and my child that he is blessing my family with.

I want to encourage you to reflect on your life now. What is stopping you for simplifying your life? What road blocks are you currently facing?

 

Sarah