Ramblings of a Pregnant Woman!

Various things have been on my mind for the last few weeks. In fact I had so many of them that I couldn’t even pick one thing to talk about last week, so I didn’t even post…sorry if I disappointed anyone.

I have been in my nesting stage for a few weeks now, and it is exhausting, but that is mainly due to the fact that I am not at home most of the day. Working full-time and trying to prepare for a child does have its difficulties, but I am truly blessed to have the opportunity to work while pregnant, and I have a great team helping and encouraging me along the way.

Okay so here is what has been happening in my world:  My son “dropped,” I find this term to be hilarious – like he can really go anywhere, and it is the most pain I have felt in awhile. All through my pregnancy I have been carrying him high and since he moved lower, there is a lot of pressure on my hips. This has caused me to look like an old hag! My hands have to be on my back to help support me when I walk, and  I waddle like a duck – seriously little ducklings should be following behind me! 

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I am pathetic! Don’t get me wrong, I can handle the pain, but I feel as though I am the stereotypical pregnant woman that they show in movies. However, once I get some Tylenol in my system there is no holding back. I will get everything done that needs to get done, and I will still complete it faster than my husband (Not a bash on him, just stating fact), that is part of nesting I guess.

I still have baby clothes to wash, but I am happy to report that the hospital bags have finally been packed, as well as a few things for my loving husband! Hopefully the Cardinals are in the World Series again and then we can bring our son into this world on a game day, but if not I am packing Big Bang Theory! The nursery is almost complete, just a few final touches that will go up this weekend and I will be sure to post a photo next week of the nursery!

One issue that has been bothering me lately is Cooper. That puppy just won’t put up his toys (I know what you are thinking, “what kind of dog puts up his toys?” Well, he knows how and he has a toy box they are all suppose to go into), and for some reason my husband finds it to be the most entertaining thing to watch me squat down and pick up each toy. I know that it looks funny, I am sure I would laugh at myself too if I could see it – maybe I will video tap it for laughs later on.IMG_1642

Cooper also knows something is going on. He is being both sweet and a hot mess all at the same time, or at least it seems so  He is super cuddly, but the next second he says screw potty training and will pee in the house… on my carpet…:(

Other than the feeling of constant pain, dealing with puppy pee, and being the entertainment for my husband, life is grand. Tobias is kicking constantly and of course giving me loads of heartburn; a great reminder that I am helping to bring new life into the world.

I know challenges will continue to present themselves and I know that stress will come and go, but as long as I keep moving forward with God and Discovering My Heart I can get through it all.

The biggest thing I have learned about myself these last two weeks, is that woman are stronger than we are given credit for. I am dealing with a lot of stress physically, emotionally, and mentally and yet at the end of each day I am happy with my life. I wouldn’t change a thing.

Sarah

“Jesus looked at them intently and said, ‘Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God everything is possible.'” -Matthew 19:26  

Preparation…

“Preparation is key!” Not sure who was the first one to tell me this, but honestly I am starting to feel like it is a bunch of bull. It doesn’t matter how much I try to get organized and ready, I still don’t “feel” prepared. Even though most of my thoughts have been dealing with getting ready for the birth of my son, I feel this way in life often.

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When my mother would take my brother and I back to school shopping it just seemed like it was always more stressful than just showing up our first day with a pad of paper and a pencil. I mean honestly, there would be something that wasn’t on the list and we would have to go back and repeated the whole process. So it really didn’t matter how prepared we thought we were, we always were missing something.

The Bible does talk in depth about preparation and I do think that it is a serious matter however, there is a huge difference in what I perceive as preparation and what God say’s in his word. When we try to prepare for our day, there is always going to be something missing if you didn’t fill your day with the love of God first. If God was not the first thing on your heart and you did not acknowledge him, then lets face it, you are not ready for the day.

I am not judging anyone, because I am totally guilty of forgetting or trying to do other things first. This is typically when I fall short and realize that I am nothing without God as the center of my life. Being prepared for the workday, and also being prepared for my child, although seem extremely important are nothing with out the guidance and direction the Lord provides.

Earlier this week I had my first nightmare about my son being born. I won’t go into to much detail, but I was not prepared and didn’t even have my son’s going home outfit (pictured below, so cute!) let alone his car seat.

Going home outfitSo in the dream they wouldn’t let me have my son, and were going to take him away from me because I wasn’t a “prepared” mother.

Needless to say I did not sleep well the rest of the night, I kept thinking about everything that needed to be done and everything that I was still missing. Especially things I needed that my husband and I cannot afford.

Just as I was starting to give myself a headache, I felt the presence of God wrap his love around me. He spoke the words that have echoed in my heart each day after having that dream, “These preparations are in vein if they don’t include me; let me show you what you need and lean on me. It is through me that you will not only have what you need, but the knowledge you need to raise this child I am blessing you with.”

I am honestly not one to cry often, except apparently when I am pregnant, but I broke down and cried in the bathroom as my husband continued to snore in our bedroom. I didn’t realize how much stress I was putting on myself to be perfect. The anxiety that I was feeling wasn’t just about the things I needed to be a good mom, it was about being a good mom. I allowed doubt to enter into my life simply because I didn’t feel I was prepared. There is no book you can buy that will tell you how to be the perfect mother, there are books that try but lets be realist! God is the only one who can teach and guide us to be who He has called us to be.

I know this may not seem that bad to some, but here is a sneak peak into my nursery. I will make sure to post an updated photo once I have it all done!

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Keep It Simple Stupid!

As an expecting mom there is a lot of worries that tend to arise, and for some reason the number one thing the doctors tell you is “not to stress,” great advice right? Wrong, if I am not worrying about my health, I am worrying about what the baby will need and it goes on and on. Trust me when I say the “To Do Lists” just keep growing.

Lately I have lacked focus on basically, everything! The only thing that lasts is my son. So instead of doing my chores I decided to mindlessly clear out my e-mail account. I know not very exciting, but I haven’t cleaned it out since my junior year in college (3 years ago). I found a great e-mail from one of my professors from a Mass Communications class and it was titled K.I.S.S. (Keep it Simple Stupid).

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Yes, the principle of K.I.S.S.  is about crafting your message to the public and is used in Mass Communications and Marking, but it can and should be applied in real life!

Life gets way to complicated and we are the ones who overcomplicate things. With all of the “issues” that I have in my pregnancy I have done nothing but worry, I haven’t been able to enjoy being pregnant, and I so desperately want to. Honestly this is no ones fault but my own. I created my own anxiety!

This morning when I woke up I could feel God’s presence and He reminded me that I am not in control, He is! I try to control every situation that comes up and really all I do is stress myself out! I have to start giving God every aspect of my life. This includes my health, the baby’s health, my marriage, my career – everything!

“Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.”

Matthew 6:33

I cannot guarantee that I will fix this issue of stress immediately, but I am going to try. I want to use this time to focus on my son and enjoy the end of my pregnancy. So for at least 20 minutes of my day I will reflex on my son, not the worries associated with him, but on him! I will pray over him and his health, read to him and even count his kicks.

I know this all sounds like the basics, but that’s the point of K.I.S.S! It doesn’t matter what I do, but it needs to stay simple. Slowly, I will implement this into the rest of my daily life, but for now I chose to focus on God and my child that he is blessing my family with.

I want to encourage you to reflect on your life now. What is stopping you for simplifying your life? What road blocks are you currently facing?

 

Sarah