Introducing …

It is time our new addition makes her appearance. Robert, Tobias and I welcomed a beautiful and healthy baby girl in April.

Meet our Hailey!

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Hailey has been an excellent addition to our family and is as sweet as can be. I have put off this post for quite some time since I was struggling with my own well-being, so my Hailey Bug is almost 6 months old now.

She is honestly such a joy and is learning to find her voice. She adores her older brother, and he is smitten with her. In fact, Tobias is the one who got Hailey to laugh for the first time.

There are so many stories I could tell, but I think it may be better just to show some of her moments over the last few months.

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There will be more updates on Hailey and Tobias to come.

Each day I continue to discover my own heart and what the Lord has in store for me.

Love,

Sarah ❤

One Day At A Time

Kids are great, but sometimes you can feel your sanity slipping away. For me, this is especially true when I should be asleep. Every parent can relate, I’m sure!

There is always something to be thankful for.

Last night was one of those nights where all my patience vanished.

Poor Tobias, I know he was tired, but he just couldn’t fall asleep. I tried everything: Rocking, walking with him, letting him cry it out etc.—nothing worked!

Just when I thought things were calming down he would wake back up. You know what I mean, right? You finally find that comfortable position and it’s like they know! As soon as I relaxed–BAM the crying started!

Now typically we would let him fall back asleep on his own, but he was keeping our neighbors awake (the downside to living in an apartment).

I lost my mind last night and parent guilt took over (and yes it truly is a thing).

“What if he is sick?” 

“What if he is teething?” 

“You can’t even calm your own child.”

All these things ran through my head along with…

“I just want sleep.”

“Oh my gosh child, just calm down.” 

“Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!” 

Tobias and I ended up on the couch around 4 am this morning, and finally he fell asleep. Soon after my alarm went off so that I could get everything ready for the day. I had no motivation to move. That is when I looked over at my sleeping, almost two-year-old and whispered “I am indeed blessed.” 

God made children cute for a reason people! So that when you are at your wits end they will do something that you can’t help but smile at. It’s like magic! You can have all your anger built up and then WHAM there is that cute smile and a hug and kiss. Melts my heart.

Parents you know what I am talking about!

Last night it was seeing him finally fall asleep and just knowing that I was entrusted with this strong-willed toddler for a reason. I was chosen to be his mother. And even thought I was sleep deprived I was still on duty.

Psalms 127:3-4 (NIV) “Children are a heritage from the Lord, offspring a reward from him. Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are children born in one’s youth.” 

The old cliché is true, we do have to take it one day at a time and even one moment at a time.

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 With each movement my heart grows a little bigger and my life is a little brighter.

Sarah

 

3 Ways I Conquer Fear

Fear is normal.

Fear is scary.

I will not let fear control me. As a planner, I try to control way too much. I plan my day, I plan my husband’s day, and of course I plan Tobias’ day. However, the day never goes as planned, and then all of a sudden I become fearful of the unknown.

My fear is what initially drove me to plan.

For the past few years I have been working on just going with the flow and letting things happen organically. Of course, I have failed on many occasions, but being more conscious of my desire to plan has helped.

Personal I find planning fun, but I also find it to be restricting. At work it is great and it is an asset. At home, it is just a distraction. Here are a few things that have helped me let go of my desire to plan while at home.

Find A Focus

BalanceWhen I focus on God and my family I tend to put aside my desire to plan the day. I will occasionally state, “I am not in control. My purpose is to worship and bring glory to God.” This helps me stay centered and to remember that there is a bigger plan at work and I don’t need to plan for God. He has everything under control. One way I do this is through daily meditation on the word and prayer.

If you are someone who is fearful of prayer I would recommend that you start just by reading the word and turning that into a pray. A good place to start is Psalm 91.

“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19:21 NIV

Eliminate Distractions

Distraction.jpgThere are so many things that can derail us from enjoying the day. Lets just start with technology. Yes, it is a great tool and I am all for social media and mind-numbing entertainment, but these things can keep us from really enjoying what life has to offer. I am not perfect and I don’t do this as much as I should, but if I am set on spending time with my family and enjoying all the fun moments, I will make sure to ignore my e-mails, stay off Facebook, Twitter and Instagram, so that I can immerse myself into my family and our adventures.

The same can be done with other distractions. Situations may arise that set the tone for the day. Someone woke up angry, frustrated, or just not feeling well. We all have had those days when we receive a call with some not so great news or a situation arises that really throws us of our game; it can be hard to put it all behind us. However, once it is out of the way you will be amazed at how great you feel. For me, I need to say things out loud so that I become more “self-aware,” so I will say something like, “I will not let this ruin my good day,” or “It is in the past and I can’t change the past, I can only change how this affects me.”

Remember You Are Not Alone

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Lack of planning can turn into fear for me rather quickly and it is important that when I become fearful I address it immediately. I do this through talking with God and confiding in my husband. I express my fear and through admitting it, I know I can conquer it.

I often find when I confess my fear that I am not alone, my husband may be dealing with a similar fear or anxiety and together we are able to approach God and find His peace over the situation.

Like I said earlier, I am not perfect and I still fail. Fear is real, but fear can be conquered.

Don’t let fear control you and your life.

Enjoy all the moments that come into your life and remember that each moment leads to you discovering your heart.

Like my Dad always says, “It is what it is!”

 

❤ Sarah

The Start of the New Year!

Since I get to enjoy the day off work for the new year, my little man is making sure I get to experience everything to the fullest. 

That means all his crazy mood swings, messes and general crazy! 

I wouldn’t have it any other way! 

Happy New Year everyone! 

  

Family Updates!

As much as I would love to sit down and blog daily – heck even weekly would be fine with me- my schedule just hasn’t allowed it to happen. I feel like so many things have occurred in the last few weeks, so I will do my best to state them all.

First off, I wrote last about how I was battling depression and I am happy to report that it is now completely gone. There were a lot of factors that assisted with helping me escape the never-ending black hole, but at least I am out of the tunnel.

In other news, my husband and I have been given the opportunity for me to pursue my dream job. Recently I accepted a new job position and I just finished my first workweek. I am in love, and I hope the love I feel for this job continues.

Swanky new office!
Swanky new office!

That does mean though that for now my husband will be a SAHD (Stay-at-home-dad). So there maybe a shift in my blog to a full blown website with both my husband and I.

"Hey Dad, what are you doing in my bed?"
“Hey Dad, what are you doing in my bed?”
Tobias and his Daddy hanging out in his crib.
Tobias and his Daddy hanging out in his crib.

After a few months of late-night tears and constant crying we thought for sure Tobias had some teeth coming in, but no such luck. Poor kid is still toothless, but at least I still get plenty of those gummy-grins everyone loves!

Happy boy!
Happy boy!

Tobias is trying so hard to  walk without assistance. He has taken about 10 steps all by himself, then he will just fall to the ground and smile up at you with a big cheesy grin. He has also learned how to fake cough and sneeze to get your attention…I am not a fan of the fake coughing 😦

There is plenty more that has been happening, but I don’t want to bore you.

I hope everyone had a great Labor Day!

~Sarah

First Family Vacation

When most people think of vacation they get excited – I am not most people.

Don’t get me wrong I love vacations, every one needs a break now and again, but I am a planner by nature. Add a baby into that and you have one stressed out momma!

Everything that I packed was based off where we were going, what we would be doing, and where we were staying – and it still wasn’t enough! This includes items to help my child sleep peacefully– and let me tell you it is very hard to get a baby to bed in a hotel when there are high school basketball teams surrounding your room! (Go Warriors!)

But after it was all said and done we had a great time.

Here are 5 tips if you are traveling with a baby younger than 1 year old.

Note: our vacation had 10+ people so some of these tips may seem like common sense, but it never hurts to be reminded.

1. Breathe

I know this step sounds basic, but for me it was essential. When you are with a large group there are things that are out of your control. For instance, on our way to the hotel Tobias was just done with the whole car ride he screamed and cried for 2 hours and nothing I did could calm him. I know its sad, but I made a short clip of it, honestly his face is so cute when he cries…I just couldn’t help it!

2. Stop trying to control everything

IMG_2556Maybe I am the only one, but I love order (I know I am not the only one, my sister-in-law and I battled it out on our vacation to see who was really in control.

Most of the time it isn’t worth it. If you want to enjoy your vacation with the 10+ people in your party and your baby you just have to go with the flow. Sadly, it took me until day 3 to figure this part out.

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3. Pack plenty of play clothes
Now what I mean by play clothes are clothing that you don’t mind if they get stained and dirty. After returning home and doing laundry, even with Shout, stains were set. Now personally I don’t care if my son has stained clothing, but some do so just be prepared that no matter what you do to prevent it, something will get messed up.IMG_2534

4. Bring extra clothes for you

I didn’t think it was necessary to bring extra clothing for my husband and I. I made sure I packed extra clothing for Tobias, but never thought anything would happen to our clothes. Boy, I was so wrong. The second day my son decided it would be funny to pee on me!

Yes, I had everything covered, but his little hands moved quickly and he wiped it out and peed. It soaked through everything I was wearing and the whole time he was just smiling!

I have to be honest though, I can’t be mad – he is just too cute to stay mad at!

5. Relax and spend time with your family

IMG_2546Since I work full-time I don’t get to see my son often, so it was very important to me that I spent as much time with my son as I could, but I also got to spend time with my brother and his family and of course our parents.

We don’t live to far from our families, but we don’t get to see them all the time, so I was really enjoying talking to my nieces and nephews and hearing about their adventures at school and with baseball and soccer.IMG_2526My husband and I are embarking on a new journey soon and I know that it will take me further from our family. This time with them was precious and greatly needed!

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These are just a few tips, too be honest I could keep going, but I am sure you would get bored!

Also, here is a video of Tobias swimming for the first time! Hope you enjoy!

What are some of your favorite memories from one of your family vacations? Leave a response in the comments below!

Happy Monday!

~Sarah

Live. Learn. Repeat.

Mother’s Day came and went, and while I had a “picture perfect” day envisioned in my mind… it is absolutely not what I got!

Instead of breakfast in bed, I made everyone breakfast (I don’t mind, cooking, but it would have been nice to have someone else do it for a change), instead of hugs and kisses from my son I got the teething tyrant (poor kid was screaming his head off almost all day).

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Typically, Mother’s Day is where the dad steps in and takes control hoping to keep the mom sane, but my husband was preparing for a business trip….so yea, out the window went that idea!

Around 6 p.m. after a constant 2 hours of screaming from my son, (which he never does, Normally he is pretty calm) I was about to lose it. Tears were forming in my eyes and my head was pounding.I just wanted to comfort my son, but nothing seemed to help.

I heard a small voice tell me to breathe and of course I kind of laughed, but I did it anyway.

I focused on my breathing and calmed myself down, and then I was able to calm my son. This is a lesson I have always struggled to learn and it is one I am sure I will have to relearn over and over!

It is important to get yourself in order before you can help others. If you aren’t right, how can you expect to make others better?

I get it, human nature runs ramped and everyone wants to fix every problem they can – as long as its someone else’s life and not their own.  Eventually you will have to look into the mirror and see all of your own issues and if anything, you should be able to fix your own problems!

But we fail!

We will always fail if we constantly try to do things that are out of our reach. It is only by the grace of God that we can be made new. When death knocks on your door and you meet Jesus face to face he isn’t going to ask you who else you fixed. He wants to know that you accepted him and have tried to live your life according to his word. Yes, he wants us to guide others to him, but he didn’t ask us to fix them! He is the only one who can change a person’s heart!

He doesn’t want to hear that you were so busy trying to fix everyone around you that your forgot to spend time with him, or even talk to him.

If you really want to help others it comes down to this:

Love them unconditionally for who they are and who God created them to be. Live your life according to God’s word; be his example to the world. 

I can’t fix every problem, and I will go insane if I continue to try. So I am going to take a step back, breathe, and make sure my life is right then and only then will I be able to assist others.

Now, here is a better picture of my son Tobias and I for Mother’s Day!

Only Mother's Day Photo I was able to get - without crying that is!
Only Mother’s Day Photo I was able to get – without crying that is!

Happy Tuesday!

~Sarah