It is easy to fall into a rut and it doesn’t help when you have lost all motivation to try and climb out of it. In my experience, that is when Satan moves. He begins to whisper in my ear and as much as I try not to listen, I hear it.
He has been whispering…
I’m not worth anything.
I’m unloved and I am unworthy.
And since his games are not new I recognized them, but I wasn’t able to stop them from running ramped.
Over and over I ran those words through my mind and they slowly began attaching themselves.
Does my husband really love me?
Why does he love me?
I’m not worthy of love.
Why does God care about me when all I do is screw up?
These thoughts weighed heavy on my heart and they boggled my mind so that I was unable to think of anything that brought joy or clarity. This has been a daily occurrence for weeks and some of the things that happen throughout my day have pushed me deeper into the hole.
The thoughts are still there, lingering in the back of my mind. As I write this I can feel them bubbling up and trying to flood my senses with the failures that have happened over the last few weeks.
But something is different this time — I have chosen to focus on facts and not assumptions.
I know that my God is always good. He loves me and accepts me regardless of my shortcomings.
“He predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will.” – Ephesians 1:5 NIV
A child doesn’t need to earn their parents love, it is just there and God has freely given his love to all of us, it is just up to us to accept it.
I woke up this morning and a sense of understanding washed back all the thoughts that were swirling in my mind.
I am enough and I am His. Just that one thought liberated me from all the burdens that I had clung to.
Satan is a master at planting thoughts in our minds to make us doubt and we are the masters at using those thoughts to hold us back from the everlasting love of our Abba Father.
You are loved and you are enough.
Always remember that!