Update on Tobias
Tobias has been sick constantly, and we have been in and out of the doctor’s office and hospital since he has been born. It feels never-ending sometimes.
About a week ago Tobias was admitted into the hospital for an abscess that formed on his neck. Originally it was just a swollen lymph node.
The abscess got so large that my son couldn’t turn his head without being in pain. So surgery was needed to drain the abscess.
In an adult, it would be call a minor surgery, but for a 3 month old (4 months now) it is a pretty big deal since they have to put him under.
Tobias did great and healed quickly, but I was a mess. I couldn’t believe that he had to be hospitalized so young.
Of course there was more going on that we didn’t know. He became resistant to the antibiotics, and there was a mess of doctors and surgeons calling telling us what we needed to do.
The calls lasted for a full week, each time it was a different doctor – talk about a headache.
Poor kid was on three antibiotics before we got the right one in his system.
Life is full of challenges, and problem solving has become a great skill of mine, but throughout this whole process I saw a part of me that I wish didn’t exist.
Now yes, I care about my son and his well-being, but I couldn’t help thinking about all the bad things that seem to keep happening to me and my family lately.
I will not go into detail because well… it’s the Internet and I am smarter than that! 🙂
The point is I wasn’t letting God be exalted in my life. I was more focused on my own feelings and emotions than on God and what he desires.
It may not seem like that big of a deal to some, but to me discovering this really stopped me in my tracks.
Giving It To God
This process doesn’t happen over night, but it is important that each day I speak aloud, “God, I give it all to you. Your will be done Father.”
Luke 9:23 “Then he said to the crowd, ‘If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me.’”
I truly believe there is power when we speak it out. Just like there is power when we pray scripture.
Every time I pray this I feel the burden being lifted off, and I can see clearly.
This isn’t a process that can be stopped after one day. We as humans are selfish in nature and I know it can be hard to remove the focus from ourselves, especially when society rewards those who are self-seeking and those who work for their own gain.
However, the reward we receive from God is much greater.
Being challenged isn’t a bad thing. Accepting to get through the challenge breeds good character and forces you to grow as an individual. And I don’t know about you, but I aways want be growing!
I will leave you with some of my favorite quotes that I hope inspire you as much as they inspire me.
Photo quotes from Goodreads.
How do you overcome challenges in your life? I am always looking for new ways to view various situations. Please share in the comments below.